The Irish alternative band Little Green Cars has a penchant for writing songs that deal upfront with heartbreak and resulting loneliness, as they first displayed in their single “My Love Took Me Down to the River to Silence Me” from their first album. In their most recent album, Ephemera, their lead singer Faye O’Rourke mournfully sings about trying to love again after suffering extreme heartbreak in the song “Ok Ok Ok”.

Lyrics courtesy of AZ Lyrics.

Where are we going
Where are we going with these arms, with these legs
Where am I crawling
Where am I crawling
Back to love again

Am I a soldier
Am I a soldier if I am bloodied and cleaved
Am I a soldier
Am I a soldier if I butcher hearts as a hobby

Will you stay with me tonight
Don’t let me out of your sight
Will you take away the impression of glass

You reply no,
I say alright
Ok Ok Ok that’s fine

But if you touch me and I scream
Just remember what I mean
I’m alright

Am I demonic
Am I demonic if I dislike the truth
Am I a liar
Am I a liar if I deny my feelings for you

Will you stay with me tonight
Don’t let me out of your sight
Will you take away the impression of glass

You reply no,
I say alright
Ok Ok Ok that’s fine

But if you touch me and I scream
Just remember what I mean
I’m alright

Analysis

In the song, the singer articulates that she’s a veteran of love that horribly failed and wounded her. She also hints that, whether she means to or not, she believes herself to be a person who similarly hurts the people who want to love her in turn. As a result of her trauma, she admits that she denies her feelings for the person who she sees might become her next genuine lover, and this might be because she’s afraid of hurting them, or getting heartbroken all over again.

The most powerful lines in this song are arguably the ones about the singer pleading with her lover to remember that if she screams when they touch her, she’s truly alright. She screams not because her lover touches her, but because the painful memories of what happened to her in the past are far too fresh, and still resurface, even during moments of genuine intimacy.

“Ok Ok Ok” is a sad reminder that trauma, specifically from toxic love relationships, can stay with us for what seems like eternity. This is a trauma that leads to trust issues, along with deep-seated paranoia about the potential for encountering another destructive lover, and can paralyze us to the point that we’re unable to enter new love. It takes time and love to recover from this, along with deep loyalty from whoever sticks by our side to make us believe that we won’t be so brutally betrayed again.